Hi guys, I hope you've all been feeling well with happiness, things to look forward to, no sicknesses (unless you have toddlers and school aged kids because there's literally no escaping it if you do), and I hope you are all finding ways to cope, thrive, stay calm, and maintain your sanity in the chaos of every day life (no but really if you can do all of this, please slide into my DMs so you can share your secrets with me, k thanks).
As for me, I can safely say my migraines are still being held at bay by my meds for the most part, and I'm thanking the good lord above for that little gift. The kids have been sick on and off with strep, ear infections, colds, throwing up, etc., but I, myself, have somehow managed to steer clear of the germs this month, so I'd call that a pretty solid win, even though I hate seeing my babies not feeling well.
But what's not a win, you're wondering? This weather lately. Cold, windy, damp and raw- the rain is no bueno.
Side note: Is it weird if I say I don't like the rain, but I love the feel of it? Let me explain. I don't love packing my jeep and getting the kids into it in the rain, driving in the rain, or my clothes, glasses, and shoes getting wet, or the fact that the kids can't go outside and play in the yard, but I love KNOWING that it's raining outside while I'm tucked away in my office with a coffee, or working from home on my couch with the kittens, or when I'm finally under my cozy sheets at night listening to the pitter patter against the windows. It's something about the feel and smell (which I used to enjoy pre-COVID loss of scent) that just drives deep thought and emotion and the urge to write... it's something that has always inspired new thought and evoked old memories all at once. Ahh, so bittersweet.
Anyhow... I am craving some nice weather though. You know, I was never really one of those people who would say I CAN'T STAND THE WINTER, I SWEAR TO GOD IF I SEE ONE MORE GODDAMN FLAKE OF SNOW, BLAH BLAH BLAH... Until this year. I am seriously CRAVING the nice weather, I just need all of it, everything that comes with Spring time: blooming flowers, green grass, and birds chirping in the morning - although hoping they can be generous enough to wait until 6am to start their back and forth morning madness from the trees. I am so ready for evening walks with no coats, ice cream dates, soccer games that aren't freezing (unless you also live in my town and have realized that the soccer fields here are quite literally the coldest place on earth no matter what season it is). I'm so excited for open windows, airing all the germs out, playing outside and watching the kids' hair blow in the breeze, the sun staying out later and later each night, exploring new playgrounds, and cleaning dirty little feet and hands in the tub at night after being outside all day, knowing how well they'll sleep from the sunshine.
Spring is just such a great thing to look forward to, although I'm a little nervous it's going to bring back memories of last April - the hardest month of my life when we lost my Dad, but I'm thinking he's going to be sending some serious healing vibes to help us cope, and we are taking the kids and my mom on a mini getaway to Maine at one of our family favorite places, so we can stay happy and busy while we build new family memories, because that's what he'd want for us. I just know it.
I've figured out one of the best things about spring is that summer is the next thing to look forward to - I'm talking pool days, popsicles, the 4th of July parade, the smell of bonfires (or again in my case, lack thereof), summer sports, tanned skin, drinks with my sister outside since she'll be home all summer, Paul looking handsome grilling with no shirt on, multiple iced coffees per day no matter how bad the caffeine shakes get, cute summer outfits, pedicures, short sleeve shirts that show off my new tattoo, BBQs and outside family time, not having to layer the kids in sweatshirts, coats, and boots, and just everything that makes summer so easy - those are the things I'm excited about because I've learned that you have to be constantly excited about something because it really does make the tough times a little bit easier to navigate.
Can anyone relate?
<3, Holly